Becoming Mommy

This may be my favorite blog post I ever write. My journey to mommyhood! At 12 years old I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) leaving with me the looming thought for the next 15 years that I may not be able to have my own children. As soon as I got engaged, I started to prep my body for pregnancy – losing 40 lbs, taking prenatal vitamins, and cutting back on alcohol for one year. As soon as I returned from my honeymoon, I asked my reluctant doctor to get me an appointment with the Reproductive Endocrinologist. She thought I was crazy – most people try before seeing a RE. But not me. I just ‘knew’ It was going to take my years to get pregnant. My husband and I didn’t necessarily want a baby right away, but again, I just ‘knew’ It was going to take forever.

After going through numerous blood tests and a few painful (well, what I THOUGHT was pain at the time) procedures to check my fertility, I was pregnant within two months. We will still never know how this miracle happened. Was it the prep I had done? The procedures that cleared out my tubes? Either way this was the best surprise of my life! I spent months crying every night, wondering If I would be able to have a baby, plan a first birthday party, and have my baby join my friends babies. Little did I know the worrying had just begun!

For the next ten months I worried about that little baby everyday. Was she okay? Was I eating the right foods? Was she moving enough? I had a pretty uneventful pregnancy, thankfully. Little girl was content in there so I had to be induced and after 32 hours of labor, 5 epidurals (yes, 5) that didn’t even work, our beautiful baby girl entered the world! And she was been the center of our universe for the past 4 months!

So that is my becoming mommy story. I don’t know what the future holds for me and my fertility, but If this miracle has taught me anything, it’s to believe!




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